My thoughts feel jumbled and like they’re scattering in all different directions.  It’s increasingly difficult to hold onto a thought.

For some reason, my brain is finding it difficult to establish between the present and the past.  Not even traumatic stuff, either.  I have conversations from years ago bouncing around in my head.

It’s almost like viewing a slideshow.  Sometimes when it happens, I wonder if I’m dying and this is the “life flash before your eyes” thing, but super prolonged.

Of course, a lot of this could be “bleed-through” from an alter.  I think one in particular has been close by this week.  I know I wasn’t there for about half of my therapy session yesterday, and I know which one it was.  And it makes me a bit uncomfortable.

Next week is super busy for me, so maybe (hopefully) it will provide an external distraction.


About healandsurvive

27 years old with an Associates Degree in social sciences. Diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder, PTSD, OCD, anxiety. I also have been diagnosed with Vestibular Migraines and my everyday balance has taken a big hit, and I am basically off-balance and some level of dizzy 98% of the time. I enjoy painting, writing, acting, singing, reading, collaging, journaling; basically anything creative.
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  1. manyofus1980 says:

    oh boy do I relate to this. I have did as well. I am in ireland I am also blind. I want to say you were brave to put your honest feelings out there. I get it. I hear you and want you to know your not alone in the struggles. xoxoxo

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