Me: I’m feeling nothing, which is a shame because I thought I’d be feeling a lot of things during this process, either good or bad. I feel like my emotion has been “snatched” from me by a well-intentioned alter, but I don’t get the good or the bad.
Therapist: Maybe try asking in the journal and saying that you think you deserve to feel something because you’ve worked hard to get this show.
Me: *writes polite request in alter communication journal*
no reply for days
Me: *composing email about what happens this week and during performance dates to the cast and crew, suddenly gasping for air and feeling like I am going to vomit or pass out and my hands are shaking and I feel like my body’s on fire*
Me: Well okay then, I understand now, thanks.