Today I was able to take a walk around my neighborhood.  This seemingly small thing is a big deal because I have been afraid to go anywhere, especially on my own, for a long time now.  I was afraid I’d run out of breath or be abducted or have a panic attack or get stung by an insect and drop dead of an allergic reaction, etc.  Plus I despise having to walk past people and avoid eye contact and think that they’re staring at me.  

Back when I used to power walk around my neighborhood for hours, I would cross the street to avoid an oncoming person.  My eyes were always downcast except for crossing the street. 

I only made one lap around the neighborhood today, and I’m surprised I even managed to do that.  I am, unsurprisingly, terribly out of shape, but hey, at least I did it. 

This has been my pointless update of the day.  And I’m typing it on a phone for the first time in my life.  25 and just figuring out how to keep up with technology. 

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About healandsurvive

27 years old with an Associates Degree in social sciences. Diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder, PTSD, OCD, anxiety. I also have been diagnosed with Vestibular Migraines and my everyday balance has taken a big hit, and I am basically off-balance and some level of dizzy 98% of the time. I enjoy painting, writing, acting, singing, reading, collaging, journaling; basically anything creative.
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